After Being Kidnapped by the Crown Prince - Chapter 215
~End of chapter 214
Under the dim candlelight, a transparent tear slowly rolled down his jade-like face.
The expression on Ming Zhu’s face looked a little bewildered, her hands and feet turned cold, her beautiful eyebrows gradually wrinkled into a ball, as the look on her face slowly turned into an expression of pain.
The face of Zhao Zhi was as flawless as jade, the tear that rolled down his face, was gone in a fleet.
The light coming from the candle flame through the lampshade was a little somber, and seeing his tear, Ming Zhu thought she was mistaken.
Chapter 215
(76.2)
Zhao Zhi’s eyes were particularly good-looking, the edge of his eyes were gently raised upward, the curvature of his eyelids was just right, his pair of dark and quiet eyes seemed to be able to talk, and his wet eyes were full of a damp and sticky misty water, seeming very much like a fragile treasure.
The pain in the bottom of his eyes was spreading to the depths of his being and was suddenly clenching his heart.
He seemed particularly sad.
Ming Zhu had never seen Zhao Zhi being in such pain, in such a sad state. But gradually, her dazed eyes recovered their clarity.
Did he know how to cry? Tears of sadness? No he didn’t. She didn’t believe it.
Ming Zhu smelled the strong scent of alcohol on his body, the scent was sweet, not unpleasant at all. She relaxed her clenched fingers and relaxed her taut back that was tense like a bowstring.
She knew that he was not the same as usual when he was drunk. The last time he was drunk, he was like an obedient child who listened to everything she said and did as he was told, which was unimaginable.
Ming Zhu said, “You’ve been drinking.”
Zhao Zhi’s voice sounded warm and gentle, as he lowered his head slightly and hummed.
After a moment, he raised his face again, the look in his eyes was a bit sorrowful, “Zhu Zhu, I had a dream.”
Ming Zhu immediately tried to avoid him, she did not want to hear about it at all.
Zhao Zhi’s knees were against the edge of the bed, his chilly fingers held her wrist, his voice was flat and slow, “I thought it was all a dream.”
In the past few years, this nightmare had tormented him endlessly, all the things that the him in the dream said and did, his demeanor and his expression at the time, turned clearer each time.
Ming Zhu instinctively resisted what he was going to say next, she removed his fingers one by one, shook off his hand, and looked him in the eyes as she said each word with a pause: “Get out, I’m not listening.”
Zhao Zhi stubbornly did not move, he wanted to ask but also did not dare to ask, “Was it I ……”
The other half of the sentence that he had yet to finish got stuck in his throat, and he was unable to say it aloud.
The memories of the past life rushed towards Ming Zhu like a wave, it was painful to even think about these matters.
Her clear and bright eyes gradually became wet with water, the edge of her eyes turned red, and she just curled up on herself, looking at him, not saying anything.
The water beads in her eyes, however, were uncontrollable, and one bead after the other, each larger than the previous one, fell down from the edge of her pretty eyes, wetting her cheeks.
She cried without any sound, and it seemed like there was no particular emotion in her eyes. There was no hate to be seen, no pain either, but instead a strong feeling of dreariness.
Even if she did not say anything, looking at her cheeks full of tears, Zhao Zhi understood everything.
It was very cold, Zhao Zhi’s hands and feet seemed to be so cold a layer of ice had formed over them, he lifted his pale and slender thumb, lightly trembling as he touched her face. With years of holding a writing brush, some thin calluses had formed on his fingers. He helped her wipe off the tear on her face, as he let out a few extremely painful syllables from his throat, “I don’t know.”
The dampness in front of his eyes hazed his vision, he slowly straightened his waist, supressing the pain at the bottom of his heart, and slowly said, “I don’t believe that I could bear to do that kind of thing to you.”
Could he really bear to? She was clearly the person he had wanted and snatched, using any means available.
Zhao Zhi was in so much pain that the expression on his face began to turn hideous, thin cold sweat broke out on his forehead, his knees were kneeling beside her waist, his hands, still-shaking, cupped her face, in a rare panic, “Are you in pain? Zhu Zhu, are you in pain?”
Ming Zhu didn’t want to hear his voice at all at this moment. Reminding her of those memories was like forcing her to relive the pain she once felt.
At the time when she loved him the most, what kind of feeling was it to be killed by him? A heart, dead like ashes.
Ming Zhu glared at him with reddened eyes, pointing her finger at the door, her emotions somewhat out of control, “Scram out, scram.”
Zhao Zhi hugged her body, while saying in her ear, “I’m sorry.”
He lowered his face, showing a very vulnerable and bewildered look, as he said, “I’m sorry, I’m the one who doesn’t know how to love properly, but I don’t want to let go of you.” His eyes looked as if he had suffered a great injustice, his warm breath brushed past the nape of her neck, “Zhu Zhu, you don’t know, once I let go, I have nothing left.”
The only way to not lose her was to hold onto her with his own hands.
Ming Zhu’s waist was binded by his hands, her chin was resting on his chest, and she didn’t speak. It was impossible to reason with a drunk person who had lost his mind.
Suddenly, Ming Zhu felt a cool feeling in the back of her neck, crystal clear water droplets were wetting her neck.
Ming Zhu could feel that the man holding her tightly seemed very sad, as silent tears fell out of nowhere like pouring rain.
She froze, and her limbs stiffened.
She did not feel any satisfaction at all, the more she thought about it, the more confused she was. Those tears that he shed out of extreme sadness were for her ? Were his tears real? Were they salty or sweet?
They might be bitter after all.
Translator : Laura
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