Unaware that My Legitimate Sister is My Husband - Chapter 106
Chapter 106
Did her legitimate sister feel that she was very retarded and also hopelessly stupid ?
It might be that she had said strange things in her dreams, and even though those words were vague, but her legitimate sister’s abilities were so vast, could it be that she had guessed right ?
After all, her legitimate sister was so powerful in her eyes, what matter on earth could she not anticipate?
About the little thoughts she had in her mind, her legitimate sister did warn her before.
Xi Xian slowly lowered her head, hummed, and then lifted her feet, heavy like lead, turning around to leave.
Xi Xian felt that she had made a mess of things.
It …… was as if she was unsuitable since birth for this profane and vulgar world, everything she did would provoke people’s despise.
She couldn’t put a stop to her feelings, she had no determination, but was instead greedy for a warm human embrace, and as a weak person, she was also praying for honor and redemption, and longing for selfless love and care.
She laid on top of the bed, sleepless nearly all night, even though her eyes could no longer stay opened, her mood was still cold and stiff.
Her tongue was numb with pain, making it even more difficult for her to sleep.
Suddenly, she lost all interest in everything, all things were far away removed from her, becoming bland and ordinary.
Her mind became so silent that it was strange, but she still couldn’t close her eyes to sleep, her mind was completely empty, and she wasn’t thinking about anything, but she still couldn’t fall asleep.
It was a sleeplessness night all night long.
Xi Xian could not speak, and was thinking that even though she was reborn, this life was still a puddle of mud, and it had become even more dirty and incomprehensible. She wanted to use her own selfish desires to sully the person who was thinking wholeheartedly for her own good, to also make that person fall and become a subject under her skirt.
And what about Xi Xian herself?
She couldn’t even tell what kind of feelings those were.
Recently, it seemed even if the crown prince was standing in front of her right now, she could turn her head and walk away, sneering at him with disdain without any hesitation. Because men were all dirty, they only ever thought in terms of lust, whereas a woman like her legitimate sister, although she was insane and hard to understand, was very pure.
The crown prince was simply not worthy, not worthy of her hurting herself like this for him, not worthy of anything that happened in the past.
But she still did what she did, and Xi Xian hated her own cowardice and incompetence.
She felt she was becoming even crazier.
The biting of her tongue was only the trigger, but the pent-up frustration exploded all in one wave, numbing her mind, making it sensitive and fragile.
Two whole months went by like this, where she couldn’t stop herself from imagining her own miserable and neurotic appearance, her state of mind fell into a terrible stalemate, and eventually became blank, even when she spoke and did things, she became like a marionette, and every expression and each smile were filled with terrifying emptiness.
Extremely pale and fragile, like a snowflake thin like the wings of a cicada, that would dissipate even when held in the palm of the hand.
The old matriarch thought that she was not normal, that she had some kind of illness in her brain, or that she was being pestered by some evil beings, so she could only take her to the temple to have her checked.
Xi Xian, however, was only glad that her legitimate sister could not see her like this, for she could not hide herself well in front of her legitimate sister.
Xi Xian was drowsy, her under eyes circles were black and blue, and her complexion was unnaturally pale, her pair of eyes were strangely bloodshot, and she felt numb when she knelt on top of the prayer cushion. As beautiful as she was, she was a soulless beauty.
The one who received them was the elder monk Huizeng at Huangjue temple, an old man over seventy years old of age, with an impervious face that carried serenity and calmness.
Xi Xian bowed in salute expressionlessly, looking at the Buddha Hall while lighting the incense and candles, a little out of her mind, doing as if she wasn’t hearing the whispering of the old lady and the elder.
She felt that her life was also like these incense sticks, burning faster and faster, and in the end, when the lamp runs out of oil, only a strand of smoke would remain, dissipating without any form into the world, leading a really unrestrained, formless and colorless happy life.
But what was wrong with that?
The elder Huizeng listened to the old matriarch’s words and stopped reciting the name of the Amitabha Buddha, and that was when he saw Xi Xian suddenly smiling, her eyes and eyebrows were curved, her white and slender palms was cupping her face, and she was actually relaxed and cheerful.
She tilted her head and said softly to Huizeng, “Is there something you want to say to me?”
She looked very strange, a mixture of vulnerability and incomparable toughness that would make people sigh with distress.
Xi Xian slowly smiled and softly said to herself, “But I like the temple so much.”
Master Huizeng had never seen a girl like this before, but he knew that it was not appropriate to advise her in the state she was in.
In the end, the old lady sighed and took Xi Xian to the back of the temple to eat vegetarian food.?
Translator : Laura
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