Unaware that My Legitimate Sister is My Husband - Chapter 108
Chapter 108
(42.1)
Xi Xian’s small hands were cold and soft, she inclined her head and she freely slipped her hand into her legitimate sister’s chest undergarment, and the woman in front of her had no intention of stopping it.
Suddenly, Xi Xian paused, she seemed to have touched a raised area, it was a deep scar, rough and uneven, and it made her numb heart slightly tremble.
She withdrew her hand as if nothing had happened and sat beside her legitimate sister, lost in thoughts, with a frozen face that had turned stiff because of the cold.
Her legitimate sister put an azure colored cloak over her, “If you get sick, big sister will be heartbroken.”
Xi Xian lowered her eyes and seemed to be smiling.
The corner of the legitimate sister’s lips slightly curled up, and she finally began to think about her question, and pondered for a moment before saying, “You want …… to stay away from the mundane world. Because you are cowardly and powerless, so you can’t balance your mind set, and you can only run away and isolate yourself from the mundane world, to have peace of mind. Is that right?”
(TL’s note ; staying away from the mundane world is another way of saying becoming a nun)
Xi Xian was really surprised, and didn’t get angry at her legitimate sister’s objective assessment.
She really never thought that there would someone in the world like her legitimate sister who could understand her so well.
This thought was in her mind for a long time, and became clearer and clearer these recent days, she just never dared to tell anyone, because if the old lady knew about it, perhaps even going outside would become a luxury.
No family would love to see their daughter become a nun with shaved hair. Even Xi Xian when she was just reborn had never thought of living her life worshipping the Buddha, and becoming a nun eating vegetarian food and chanting sutras every day, and having no more expectations for the rest of her life.
Back then, she still had expectations for this life, she wanted to make her legitimate sister kneel down and beg for forgiveness, wanted to make Xi Yao get retribution, to satisfy her own heart full of vengeance, and then she wanted to find a good man to marry, to experience one time a life she had never experienced in the past.
But now she realized that even after being reborn, she was still herself.
Going back to the past didn’t mean that she could truly change everything, because the past experiences were still there, and that was what created the current her.
No one can bury their head in the sand and pretend that they are a newborn being, that was just a paradox.
Besides…… she fell in love with someone else, but perhaps it would be even more tragic than her previous life.
She was used to exclusive doting and could not tolerate other people’s interference, so she would once again end up depressed.
Only after freeing herself from the profane and mundane world could Xi Xian be truly reborn.
Escaping was something hateful to people, but it was very useful.
Xi Xian smiled silently, her voice became hoarse and small: “Yes, I’m really tired, and I suddenly realized that it would also be very good to become a nun. I won’t have to marry anyone…. and I won’t love someone I shouldn’t love.”
Patients like her actually want to save themselves. They do not want to become depressed and take their own lives.
Only this way could she perhaps get a glimpse of the light of heaven and find true peace.
Her legitimate sister looked at her in silence, the cold wind was blowing the woman’s long hair in a rustling sound, her side profile under the moonlight was beautiful like an immortal goddess high above.
He knew Xi Xian had those kind of thoughts, but as a man, he thought that between two women, it would be very difficult for love to exist.
Because women were jealous, and they also all desired to be properly settled, treasured as a treasure, and the women whose nature was yin since birth were more eager for the yang’s nourishment, so that a new life could spark.
Xi Xian retreated too much, but her desires were very simple.
“She”, as her legitimate sister, became her last warmth, which was unexpected.
She was too soft and gentle. In her early teenage years, Xi Xian was like a weak cub which, when given enough patience and love, would never change her decision after setting her mind on someone.
And to make her change her mind, one would have to give an enormous amount of courage and trauma.
It was most definitely a very exhausting life.
When she broke out of her shell, she probably longed to see the right person, so that she could be spared of the suffering, and not misplace her deep love.
He looked at Xi Xian’s face, his long eyelashes covering the color of his detached and cold eyes, but didn’t say a word.
Her legitimate sister slowly closed her eyes, and just kept quiet.
Xi Xian smiled, her white fingers tapping her lips, as she softly said, “Then will you allow it or not? After all, the family will not allow me to become a nun.”
She desired to be redeemed, but was also unwilling to give herself hope, so she believed that her legitimate sister would not agree.
The fishing rod began to move again, and she looked in the distance, so far that she saw the crescent waning moon between the mountain passes, as her mood turned faintly ardent and mad.
Without a hurry, her legitimate sister reeled in the line, before gently smiling and saying, “Why not?”
As if she had a deeper meaning, her voice was low and slow, “As long as it’s your wish, I will fulfill it.”
Translator : Laura
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