Unaware that My Legitimate Sister is My Husband - Chapter 114
Chapter 114
Unexpectedly, née Qin didn’t say anything to stop her, but only persuaded her very tactfully.
Her concubine mother warmly and gently said: ”Xianxian, have you really made up your mind? Can you tell mom what you really think, and what your plans are for the future ? That would reassure mom.”
Xi Xian served a cup of tea for her concubine mother and said with lowered eyes, “I want to become a nun, my legitimate sister promised that if I still want it in the beginning of spring, she will allow me to shave my head.”
Her concubine mother sighed: “You want to leave here, because of something that you have experienced? Yiniang still can’t figure out what you are thinking in your head.”
Xi Xian couldn’t say it out loud and just shook her head, “I don’t want to get married, and I don’t want fancy clothes, food, gold and silver jewels either. I just want to live the purest life.”
“You probably don’t know me, there are too many things I want, if I can’t fully possess it, I’ll go crazy, so there are many things that I’d rather not see at all, so I can have a peaceful state of mind.”
Née Qin was shocked to the point of speechlessness, and she was rarely ever astonished.
To be able to drive her daughter to such a state, perhaps during her absence, the supreme Lord really did something with Xianxian.
What did Xianxian mean when she said that she wanted full possession?
She wanted the supreme Lord’s undivided attention and for him be her husband alone? Or to put down his authority and government affairs and only have her in his heart?
Needless to say, Hongyu felt that she had raised the child badly.
Her original intention was to respect and praise Xi Xian’s thoughts. Although she was a bit surprised, she couldn’t be too critical, if Xi Xian really wanted to become a nun, no matter what, she, as a mother, would still protect her.
But she had to try her best to convince Xi Xian.
Née Qin took a sip of tea and thought about her wording for a while before slowly saying, “But have you ever thought, Xianxian, you want to leave the Xi family, to go and be alone, to leave all your worries behind, but as long as you live in this world, you can never really break ties with people ?”
“It’s like, when you are a nun in the mountains, what will you eat? What kind of clothes will you wear, do you know how to wash yourself, do you know how to keep warm in winter, what if there are bad people? Have you ever thought about that?”
Xi Xian froze, shook her head and said softly, “Legitimate sister will help me, why should I think about it myself?”
Née Qin laughed from anger. She thought inside, your big sister can not wait to eat you whole, since you’re receiving the benefits of the Lord, how could there be no return? Did she really think that the master was doing things out of the goodness of his heart?
Née Qin smiled: “Child, that’s not considered to be free from the profane world, have you thought about that, what will happen after a few decades? If your legitimate sister gets married, becomes a grandmother, goes to a faraway place, has her own clan and family, juniors and peers ? Even if she still thinks about you, how are you going to ask for her help for decades, won’t you be ashamed?”
“Think about it, what will you do in this situation?”
“You’ve grown up being spoiled like this, when you wear coarse fabric, you will feel raw pain, your strength is so weak that you can not even pick up a few pieces of firewood, you do not know how to do business and trade, and when you socialize with others, it is a mess, very few people can tolerate your princess-like temperament. Besides, among your maidservants, some have been bought by the Xi family, and some have been born in this family, if you really want to cut off all ties, you can not bring them with you. ”
“Tell me, you who has been spoiled like this, are you really able to leave this person?”
Tears surfaced in Xi Xian’s eyes, she bit her lips and did not speak, it seemed that just by listening to her words, she was very quickly brought to tears.
Née Qin could not bear to see her like this, but she had to continue, “Child, you are thinking too simply, escaping is the hardest thing to do.”
(45.1)
For a moment, Xi Xian thought née Qin’s words were right.
What she thought was escaping was actually escaping by borrowing the wings of her legitimate sister. Her so-called peace of mind was under the premise that she was able to feed and clothe herself, but by truly cutting herself off from the attachments she had in the profane world, she simply would not be able to feed and clothe herself, so how could she be tranquil and peaceful at heart?
And if that link was not cut off, how could it be said that she was leaving the profane world ?
She was but a cowardly woman, that was taking a shortcut to avoid her own pain, but it was not something that could last in the long run.
However, Xi Xian was not really moved.
Because her concubine mother had miscalculated her.
Translator : Laura
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