Unaware that My Legitimate Sister is My Husband - Chapter 115
What she thought was escaping was actually escaping by borrowing the wings of her legitimate sister. Her so-called peace of mind was under the premise that she was able to feed and clothe herself, but by truly cutting herself off from the attachments she had in the profane world, she simply would not be able to feed and clothe herself, so how could she be tranquil and peaceful at heart?
And if that link was not cut off, how could it be said that she was leaving the profane world ?
She was but a cowardly woman, that was taking a shortcut to avoid her own pain, but it was not something that could last in the long run.
However, Xi Xian was not really moved.
Because her concubine mother had miscalculated her.
Chapter 115
She was originally a capricious woman, she just needed to achieve her goal and that would be it. She was not so noble as to want to sever her ties with everything, she just wanted to go to a clean place, free of strife and disenchantment.
She would save up enough gold and silver to find a way to live out the rest of her life in peace even without the love and care of her legitimate sister, wouldn’t that be fine enough?
It was not like she really wanted to become a nun, she just wanted to free herself from everything.
Xi Xian shook her head, wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes, softly saying, “Yiniang, I still want to become a nun, but I won’t refuse my legitimate sister’s help, and as for what you’re worrying about, that’s all unnecessary, I’m not really thinking about really cutting off all my personnel ties.”
“But, as you know, I’m too easily depressed and miserable, and just a little offense and cryptic malice can upset me, so it’s no longer appropriate for me to stay here. I ask you to tolerate Xianxian’s capriciousness.”
Née Qin didn’t know what to say, and just sighed without saying anything.
If she could, there was nothing she couldn’t do to support her daughter.
After all, she wasn’t considered a woman who truly abided to the rules of virtue and propriety, so this couldn’t be considered shocking to her, but there were some things that she couldn’t defy.
For the first time in her life, née Qin spoke harshly to Xi Xian.
She slowly got up, like a truly severe noblewoman, and looked at her young daughter and indifferently said: ”You don’t understand, Xianxian, only when you are a woman will you be able to speak of happiness. If you are alone, when you reach Yiniang’s age, you will then know what loneliness and pain are.”
“And by that time, the one you love will have already started a family, and will be with someone else, all your sisters will get married one after the other, your father and mother will no longer exist, and you’ll have nothing left in the world.”
“Yiniang knows you, you’re a girl who can’t bear to suffer, just how capricious do you have to be before you’re willing to turn back?”
Xi Xian started to sob in a small voice, so soft and gentle that people wouldn’t bear to chastise her.
“But, my big sister will help me in everything, she’s my big sister, how could she leave me behind and not care about me?”
Née Qin was so exasperated by her that she was speechless.
No matter what she said, Xi Xian’s answer was always “Big sister will help me”, “Big sister loves me very much”, and “Big sister won’t go back on her words”.
She had some kind of obsessive trust in her legitimate sister, Xi Heng, as if outsiders would never be able to understand where Xi Xian’s childlike obstinacy was coming from, like a child’s drawing that was both colorful and obscure.
But that child could still seriously point out to you that this was a little flower, that this was a letter, and that inside the stream, candies of all colors were flowing.
That child believed she drew the truth.
Née Qin was so angry at the daughter she had raised that her head was aching.
This was her first time being so helpless, Xi Xian’s singularity laid in the fact that even with things that made no sense, she could still fall in head first, and analyzing the pros and cons with her was simply speaking in the air.
Xianxian was forever looking at you with big innocent eyes, seemingly seriously listening to the advice, yet focusing on playing with her sleeves with her head down.
It seemed that, apart from her legitimate sister personally reasoning with her, Xi Xian wouldn’t listen to anyone.
Née Qin could not help but feel deeply, that the girl knew who was the most willing to spoil her, she was clever and smart with her small nose, and could, with a sniff, smell the scent of bottomless indulgence, so she was not afraid of anything, and a few words of sermons could not make her turn her head back.
Xianxian’s thinking was very problematic, she was really too capricious, even if she wanted the stars in the sky, she was able to say it aloud with a straight face.
Née Qin, after pondering for a moment, could only deceive her for now, “Your legitimate sister will soon be entering the palace as the crown princess, Xianxian, do you know what this means?”
Xi Xian’s eyes widened in surprise, and tears began to drip down immediately. This time, she was really afflicted.
“You …… said, big sister, big sister is going to get married to who?”
Née Qin said, “To the crown prince, he is after all the eldest miss’s cousin, it makes sense that she gets married to His Highness.”
Xi Xian felt like she couldn’t accept this kind of thing at all.
She shook her head, broke down inside, unable to hold back her sobs. Her eyelashes were stained with tears that seemed to be gushing out: ”It’s impossible! You’re lying to me, it’s impossible for my big sister to leave me, it’s impossible for her to marry that whatever crown prince! How can he do something like this, is he an a**hole ? How can he marry every woman he sees, I really want to slap him ……”
Née Qin: “…………”
She never expected Xi Xian’s reaction to be so big, and what she expected even less was that Xi Xian’s focus was actually on wanting to slap the crown prince.
But at the very least, née Qin could see that Xi Xian was very resistant to Xi Heng leaving her, she even whole-heartedly believed that her legitimate sister would never leave her behind, which wasn’t good.
Translator : Laura
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